40 day fast, 1 new vision

My 40-day break from social media and health coaching has recently concluded. During that time I poured a lot of prayer into specific areas: unity among the believers in the Kamiah, Idaho area, closer relationships with our kids, and seeking direction and wisdom concerning my health coaching business were a few of them.

PREVIOUSLY OVERLOOKED

For the first several weeks, my prayers accended but I didn’t have any specific clarity. However, on day 26 an event occurred that helped bring insight into what I believe God wanted to do within my heart concerning my business: the screen door on our RV fell off its hinges. As a result, we currently have a front door that is either entirely open or completely closed. There is no middle ground. As such, we now notice things we previously overlooked–such as how dirty the inside of our door had become behind the ever-present screen. A prompt, long overdue cleaning ensued because we could now see the situation for what it really was, instead of overlooking it out of situational ignorance.

Photo: our clean front door (minus the screen)

My time of fasting allowed a similar situation in my heart to occur. At the removal of social media and the pursuit of building my business, I’ve been forced allowed to see things that I’ve been overlooking. Here is what I’ve found: A year ago, when God invited me to use my gifts and my past to encourage women, I took that invitation and ran with it, pouring myself into health coaching and devoting 18-20+ hours a week to the goal of reaching as many women as I could. In the process, I unknowingly created an idol out of the opportunity and I believe missed His intended purpose for me. My blog post here sheds some light on the Biblical story that God used to begin helping me to discover this.

During my fast, God revealed that over time I began to make health coaching about me and what I could do with it instead of about what God wanted to do with it through me. I’ll admit that It’s difficult to recognize unpleasant realities and even harder to share them publicly. Continue reading “40 day fast, 1 new vision”

self-sufficiency < deeper dependence

This week a friend encouraged me that in a time of prayer for our family she felt like God gave her the word “digital journaling”. She believed God wanted to encourage us to be willing to be raw and open about what He is doing in and through us.

I received that word and am here to say that God is working, helping me to identify areas that need to be more closely focused on His face and asking me to set aside some good things for His best things. Conceptually it sounds amazing and holy and pure and right. In reality, it’s not so easy.

OBEDIENCE OVER UNDERSTANDING

Recently our family attended The Send in Orlando, Florida. Perhaps I will write in more detail about the event itself in the future, but for the purpose of today’s topic, I’ll hone in on a specific aspect that was encouraged by one of the speakers—an invitation to enter into a 40 day fast.

As I prayerfully reflected on what might be the best thing for me to fast from, the answer that rose up in my heart was a little unexpected: fast from social media and step back from building my health coaching business. Immediately, I recognized the time that this could free up for focused prayer and study in God’s word as well as pouring more into those closest to me. However, the subsequent wave of thoughts has required more soul searching.

If I step away from my business for 40 days:
-I’ll lose traction and my consistent investment of time will crumble.
-The women I work with may feel abandoned.
-What will be left when I return? Continue reading “self-sufficiency < deeper dependence"