Not to be captain obvious but it is hard to wait.
As I formulate the words in my mind that I am about to type I shake my head with self disdain: Our house has been on the market for 48 days now and nothing is happening. No offers. No showings. Nothing. Do you hear me people? 48 whole days we have been waiting! Belch, I just threw up in my mouth a little at my own ignorant impatience.
It not my fault really, I just saw this playing out differently in my mind:
We tell God we will do anything. We wait, we pray, we listen. We try to hear His voice in the wind. Nothing. We start to hear rustling and things start selling–big things and little things but still no clear direction. We cross-examine every opportunity that comes across our path. Nothing. Then, something and more somethings and pretty soon we have built up a pretty solid case for our next move on God’s adventure team. We list the house for sale on a Thursday evening. By Friday we have a few showings lined up and by Sunday we are praising God in church for the multiple offers we have received on our home. We pack up, we move and enter phase two of the grand adventure.
Clearly that version was not Holy Spirit inspired and clearly God has more in mind than easing my wait time. It’s good, I know it is because HE is good and I remind myself that this whole grand plan is about bringing him glory. I really truly do love that He takes the time to refine me in the process of His plan, I just sometimes forget that I love it while it is happening and only think of it when I later look in the rearview mirror of time. He doesn’t ever abandon me when my attitude fails to keep up with His higher agenda. In fact, it seems that His entire agenda is tightly woven within the goal of rescuing His people out of their miserable sin and into His perfect plan. I want that; the perfect plan. I just need to remember that the waiting is part of the plan.
Isaiah 40:27-31 spoke to my heart today and encouraged me to realign my trust in Him who is trustworthy.
Why do you say, O Jacob, and assert, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the Lord, and the justice due me escapes the notice of my God”? Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increases power. Though youths grow weary and tired, and vigorous young men stumble badly, yet those who wait for the Lord will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary.